The Food gods

I want more than anything to put the Food god to rest.  For the duration of my life on this earth to be able to have that part be at peace.  So, I want to confess that my understanding of this part of my life is messed up.  If it were as easy as "just say no" it would have happened.  But now what I'm wondering of the connection food has with body, mind and soul.  The older I get the more this is being revealed that everything is connected. To understand that just saying "no" is enough hasn't worked.  I need more.  If my soul longs for God to set me free from hate or pride why wouldn't it long to be free from the food too?  

One answer to this maybe in the confession of the hold it has on me.  What it will take is true honesty that will invited a view of what I believe about myself.  I want to understand the relationship I have created with food.  Why do I think of food as much?  What does thinking of food this much during the day add or take away from the day?  Am I devoting just as much thought to my Lord as to food?  Is my day centered on Him and what I am to be doing for Him? There is more to this but I can't do it alone.  I need your prayers.  I need for us to pray that God will open my eyes to the truth of what, why and how this addiction operates.  I have experienced other revelations that have given a permanent change so I believe it will happen.  

So please pray that our confessions will be honest and open so that He can reveal.  My desire is to be Fit for Him!

Till next time     

Greater Purpose

"For when David had served God's purpose in his own generation, he fell asleep"...Acts 13:36 This verse came from a daily devotional that I get by email.  It talked about purpose being greater than achievement and how our life purpose must be in the interest of others or it will become manipulation and exploitation.  This I can understand though I have a long way to understand and live it.  What stuck me was the verse of David completing his purpose.  

I have many faults but the one that jumps out by reflecting on David completing his purpose as how I give up before God is ready.  There have been so many situations that I have dropped the assignment before completion due to my insecurity, fear of failure or asking God for strengthen.  You see, it is more important for me to feel secure and safe about myself than anything else.  I've struggled with lack of confidence for the greater part of my life.  I used a great amount of energy insuring that I would be comfortable and have the approval of others so I wouldn't have to suffer the pain of my inabilities.  

This blog has helped reveal my insecurity.  At first I was excited and looked forward to sharing. But as time went by it became harder to open up and share what was in my heart.  I could tell that I was using the blog for a purpose that wasn't in the best interest of others and wasn't using it for God's purpose.  

When it was starting getting harder and more uncomfortable to open myself up, the easier it was to stop writing and give up.  I'm a pro at giving up!  But David's life is telling me not to. I don't know how this blog will continue or what direction it will take but I will place my confidence in Him!  Making me Fit for Him!

Till next time! 

God is good even on vacations!

I'm home!  What a great vacation I had and what fun it was being with family!  I love being with family and being back home (Texas).  One of the highlights was being at my Dad's ranch in central Texas.  He and my stepmom live in a small town called DeLeon which is about two hours south west of Fort Worth.  I felt a calm in my soul that happens when I set foot on the front porch.  Dad and his wife moved there about 18 years old and for the last 10 years our family has met for Labor Day weekend.  This year there were only three out of 19 that were able to make the trip but a fun time as had by all.  As much as I love being there one of my most memorable and blessed time of the vacation wasn't being at the ranch.  Early in the week while I was in the Dallas area Dad had a doctors appointment and I had the opportunity to accompany him.  It was the first time in probably 20 years I got to spend the whole morning with Dad, just the two of us.  I loved it!  Just me and my dad!  

I will always cherish that blessing!  

Till next time!